Whilst I’ve been away in Portugal and had time to think and get away from everything, I’ve decided I want to change a few things in my life as well as some bits about myself (bits that I am able to obviously!). I want to make changes to my life so that I am not constantly overwhelmed and letting everything get on top of me and allowing it to bring me down.
There are a few things that I keep thinking about that I want to learn or do that will hopefully improve my life and help me to feel a bit more organised and like I’ve got my shit together for once!
Learn how to french plait –
I’ve always wanted to be able to french plait, and I did kind of learn how to do a very crappy one years ago, but I’d love to be able to do it properly, mostly to be able to do one in Ava’s hair. It’s partly due to always being in a rush in the morning, but I always end up doing A’s hair really quickly – it doesn’t matter too much because it’s quite short at the moment, but she loves having her hair done differently, so I’d really like to take the time and effort to do it nicely for her sometimes. I want to be a mum who can do hair!
Learn to love gardening –
I think at the grand old age of (almost) 33 I would really like to get into gardening! My mum has always loved getting out into the garden with her green fingers, and my Granny was the same before her. I remember them wandering round their gardens discussing the plants and spending lots of time working on them. They loved it. It’s never appealed to me in the slightest unfortunately, but I’m wondering if I could be persuaded to fall for it in any way.
I do like the idea of it to perhaps help me to unwind a little bit and spend more time outdoors being at one with nature and shit. I feel like I’ve been a tightly wound ball of string for a little while now and I think it’s time I attempt to unravel.
My garden has become a bit (lot) of a shithole over the winter again so it would be pretty nifty to be able to tend to it myself, and create a garden I’m at least a tiny bit proud of, and that I have the desire to maintain myself. I want pretty pots on the patio, and an area we can have lots of barbeques over the summer, rather than being knee-deep in grass and pots full of weeds (albeit pretty ones).
I’m going to ask my sweet, kind, lovely, beautiful, helpful, generous mother if she’ll come over one weekend soon and teach me a few basics and take a trip to the garden centre with me to help me choose some hardy little buggers that I won’t have killed in a week. In fact I think I just did (*waves to mother*). I feel like I could plant a plant right now, but I’d probably be doing it wrong.
I’m actually weirdly looking forward to it and can’t wait to get stuck in. At the same time I am wondering how long that will last once I start!
Finally get my house organised –
I feel like I’m constantly battling against piles of ‘stuff’ that constantly need organising, particularly clothes. I desperately want to get on top of it and feel calmer in my surroundings. I’ve cleared out loads of the house over the past few months and it’s felt good to get rid of so many bits we don’t need, but there’s still too much stuff taking over and it makes me tense. I don’t want so much *stuff*.
Do you have anything you’d like to learn or to change in your life right now??