Today was a Bad Day

Today was a bad day…

…sometimes it just is isn’t it. And you have to just wait for it to pass by and the crappy feelings to pass.

Having a bad day

I felt a bit rubbish yesterday and I’ve been a bit poorly on and off for a couple of weeks. I’ve also had an awful lot of migraines and I’m tired. But today I’ve just felt so damn low.

My daughter has been so so difficult from the very start of the day and it’s all just bringing me down. She has never ignored what I ask of her quite so much as she is doing at the moment and she denies that she’s being naughty when I tell her she is, and then gets ridiculously upset when I’m more firm with her and cries her flaming eyes out. I’m guessing it must just be a stage but it’s a bloody weird and difficult one.

I have no patience whatsoever although I must have a bit because I’ve been mostly calm when I’m talking to her. Maybe there’s some little calm part of me that’s kept separate for when I really, really need it most.

But you know those days when it feels like more than just tiredness and feeling a bit pants? Those where you can’t seem to shake off the way you feel, you lack motivation to do anything and you just want to curl up in bed and be left alone. I’m just like that today. It happens sometimes, but I HATE feeling like this and also feeling like there’s nothing I can really do about it . I know that I have to just wait for it to pass, but I hate feeling so incredibly ‘meh’ and not being able to fight my way out of it. It feels like I’m wasting time.

It’s one of those days that makes parenting really hard. I just want to be alone, or at least not have to look after anyone else. It probably sounds selfish and it probably is a bit, but it’s how I feel today. It’s half term so I don’t get a break at all and with Ava being so challenging this week I’m really struggling and it’s sh*t. Sometimes it all just gets too much doesn’t it? When Ava’s not at nursery I obviously don’t have the time to get things done that I usually do, and so I’m also very overwhelmed with everything and how much I have to do, and feeling like I’m not getting anywhere with it.

I don’t feel like myself, and yet, I know this is me and I am just sometimes like this. And I just have to wait it out. I’m ok. It’s part of life.

This too shall pass (hopefully tomorrow).



  1. Sam
    28th October 2015 / 11:05 pm

    Well I can tell you I have felt exactly the same today. From the feeling unmotivated to just wanting some time to myself. Although if I ever do get time I usually feel guilty using the time to do something for me. My little boy who really is the best to be around most of the time had been really difficult this week and it just gets a bit draining sometimes. But like you say we all just have to remember that it WILL pass it just sucks while your going though it. Hope things pick up for you soon. I’m sure they will. And thanks for sharing, sometimes makes things feel better when you know others are going though the same thing x

  2. 28th October 2015 / 11:08 pm

    I so could of written this, I totally get where you are coming from.
    Alas as Mum’s we just don’t get the luxury of a day off or a day in bed even. I think at times we could do with it and more than deserve it.
    My half term has gone to pot, as I am feeling yukky, so not getting much done at all.
    Sending big hugs and hope you have a better day tomorrow and that you feel well soon,
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  3. 29th October 2015 / 9:34 am

    Hoping you feel better by the time you read this! Wish I could be there to give you a big hug and send you to bed. What you should do on bad days is snuggle down on the settee with Ava and watch tv and eat naughty stuff. Forget the chores and give yourself a break. I think everyone has those days; I certainly do. Love you, Mum xxx

    • 29th October 2015 / 9:36 am

      Thanks mama. I know I should do that and it would be lovely if I could, but it actually just makes me feel worse because I’m not getting anything done! Love you xxx

  4. 29th October 2015 / 2:00 pm

    We all have those days when it all just gets too much. With kids it seems they like to test us for a period of time before they return to normal! Sounds like you need a little time out/space. Is there anyway you can get this? family? partner? Usually when I’ve reached this limit I just need a few hours for me. x
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  5. 29th October 2015 / 10:03 pm

    I’ve had a few days like this recently, I have to force myself to get up and moving. Do you manage to get any alone time? Mine is when the children are in bed, so I’m pretty strict about bedtimes to ensure I get some down time.! I hope today has been better. xx
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  6. 30th October 2015 / 7:18 pm

    I could’ve written this the other day. I’ve had a fairly constant meh feeling and you’re right, it’s deeply frustrating and irritating but you have to wait don’t you? Hope you’re feeling better today x
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