Feeling Insecure

At the moment I’ve been horribly insecure and I’m not entirely sure why. It’s not like I’m the most confident person usually – far from it, but I’m just doubting myself a lot at the moment, as well as people’s feelings for me.

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You know sometimes when you feel like something has changed in a relationship and people don’t like or love you as much as they did? Or is that just me? I think usually it’s actually me that has changed – not in any big way, but just that I’m feeling more tired and crappy, and a lot less confident than usual and so I question everything that I wouldn’t usually. It’s horrible though. I think it’s really hard to see how things really are when you feel like that, and you just have to have trust.

I just keep thinking people don’t like me as much as they did, or as I thought, and I wish I didn’t care because if people don’t like me as much then that’s their problem.

I think part of it is that I am waiting for some results for a scan that I had and I’m feeling pretty scared about what the results will say. It’s making me feel quite low and I’m struggling to sleep because I have so much on my mind, which of course makes me feel more rubbish about myself.

I am aware that this sounds like a very self-pitying post, and it really isn’t intended to be – I just find it so frustrating when extreme tiredness makes me feel so pathetic! I really want to just not give a fuck, and feel good about myself regardless, but unfortunately I’m a lameass who cares too much about what people think.

Do you ever feel like this – doubting how people feel about you? What do you do to make yourself feel better?


    • 19th October 2016 / 12:42 pm

      Thanks lovely. I know you do :( I wish I could help. Maybe it’s not, but sometimes that’s just what we need to do for a bit xx

    • 19th October 2016 / 12:44 pm

      Thanks so much honey. You’re all awesome. I think you’re right xxx

  1. 19th October 2016 / 9:29 am

    I get like this, like Stacey says, it sounds like anxiety. Don’t let it get to you, I think you’re lovely and I’m sure lots of other people too. Maybe arrange some fun days out with your friends to remind yourself that you have some great relationships in your life! A good giggle always helps. I hope the results of your scan come back good too, awful to be worried about health. Lotsa love 😘😘😘😘
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    • 19th October 2016 / 12:47 pm

      It’s rubbish isn’t it?! Thanks so much – I think you’re lovely too :) I have had a couple of great days out with friends recently and have more planned. I think it’s this stupid tiredness and too many emotions! I keep meaning to tell you about the scan stuff actually! xx

  2. 19th October 2016 / 9:55 am

    I go through phases like this too, and had quite a long and bad one about a year ago. It’s a horrible feeling :( I hope it gets better for you soon. Suddenly one day soon you’ll just wake up and feel differently x

    • 19th October 2016 / 12:49 pm

      Thanks so much Melissa. It’s so horrible isn’t it? Sorry you had a bad one. I’m hoping that happens soon! xx

  3. Sue Collier
    19th October 2016 / 10:45 am

    It’s funny (not haha funny) but I always think the image you portray to the world is VERY confident, very aware, and very decisive. I think your insecurities do not show, but you clearly think that they do.

    You are a beautiful and caring woman and you need to believe in yourself more. I have no idea who you are thinking does not care for you as much…. I would certainly presume it isn’t me because I can’t see you as often as we would both like :-)

    Remember most people are too busy worrying about their own lives to notice what other people are going through!

    Keep your chin up Lou; we will deal with your results when they come.

    Put on some happy music and dance around in your pants!

    Love you babe. Mama :-)

    • 19th October 2016 / 12:53 pm

      I’m sorry – who are you?

      Thanks mum. It is you! This is all your fault for abandoning me!! No, it’s just a general thing really. I’ll be right!

      I know we will – I’m not too worried; it’s just horrid living in limbo until then! Love you too xxxxx

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